If the woman spends, but the love is not the only pistil
Aug 3rd, 2008 by 008girls
If the woman spends, but the love is not the only pistil
She likes the picture orchid. When four years old, mother working in the American association visited a national first class painter to work as a teacher for her, teach her how to paint. Teacher give her one yellow ” mustard seed garden paint, pass “, let her recite content with superficial understandinging first. She does not like mountains and rivers personages, does not like the wood of grass worm’s bird either, but only like that one of blue chrysanthemum of plum bamboo. And ” blue table “Â It is foremost in this, so she reads to study in it on only ” blue table ” Carry and is familiar with, unexpectedly would only like to study the picture orchid finally.
She and he are university classmates, in the same year, different. Knows and chats about in the library for the first time, he remembers that works that she participated in the art exhibit of the school, and with deep impression, say that orchid seems that there is not some stamen. She says: “Do not have some stamen. The teacher says, the stamen is to spend the most honourable soul. Can go to click after really understanding the spirit of the flower. ”
He asks an orchid to pursue to her, but she does not give all the time. She says the stamen has not been got ready yet. He has saved the meal charge of half a year, after putting the first snow early winter, sent the orchid of a basin in full bloom to her. Basin this in the know orchid to know purpose make her start to write or draw some down stamen finally. In bloom fragrance that wither in orchid, university life has reached the coda quickly. Because her picture has obtain Grand Prix in the whole country, has aroused the attention from art circles, being stayed and saved a fine arts magazine office of Federation of Literary and Art Circles. And he, is assigned to back to the remote homeland small city. On the left is the future, on the right is the love. The middle two flowers, it is her. She stretches out hands, has nipped off one on the left. She says to him: “Can draw everywhere to draw. The love can not be got everywhere. ”
All step into the right path, while getting the marriage certificate, they drink a bottle of red wine. Cheering each time, he is saying with a word: “You are my stamen, I am your stamen. ” Many times is if the difficult to be the difficult without being abandoned from incantations happy,to say is the less dark. She cried at last, opened oneself, took the post as his pen, a own stamen. Holding his health, she thinks: In this way, that’s settled then. One orchid in bloom, have leaf to be very easy, have petal can split, have stamen can a bit, how good thing how well it is. She after marriage, has pushed a brand-new gate open. Rice and fuel daily necessaries, the poem hops of lute-playing,chess,calligraphy and painting, completely different two world, she stand, in mid point, begin one little several point one decimal point ground estranged the latter, close to the former. After the son was born in, the close pace was more unexpected and fast: His shirt should be pressed, the son’s diaper should be washed; His leather shoes should be wiped, the son’s milk power should be bought; His pants should be changed, this newspaper of the son’s registered permanent residence  He, son, son, he, this is her most important life. She understands the dull, trifling, hardships, mediocre during that time - -Even boring, but according to a word that of him, she think all these there is a result.
“You are my stamen, I am your stamen. ” To her, this is deepest understanding and praise to love.
To a person that transports sometimes, the world of the small city is actually big enough too. He after marriage flushed with success, rapidly go up in the world. Have tried to find out in the organ for a few years feeling just like fish in water first, is familiar with all outposts of the tax office, comprehend all knack, resign, manage company, one pen business and profit by oneself until the Long River rolls on, forever, wave after wave. Just as beginning from the colon, a thin and weak slight-pause mark grows into a smooth comma, grow into a plump full stop again, hereafter, the ellipsis that exclamation and future that it is surprising to be be also expected far away were immeasurable. Family for him, if one unable slight-pause mark that stay for a long time - -Come out early and return late, the middle three telephone such as society all prevailing success and busy standard husband. As to this, she that has already got used to has not thought either it is good. No matter who the stamen, so long as three people are on a flower, it is enough, she thinks. She think day can pass, go down day by day so, until hear, have friend incomparable to talk about those woman carefully to her with full of sympathy tone.
That woman, is the staff member who he recruited last year. Like, wear heavy pieces of heavy pieces of clothes that flowers intersperse, gaudy light 4 penetrate, seductively charming all directions. Launch the business flourishingly, send the beautiful eyes bolling hotly too. Have several round, he think one that is in tree peony in being strong, orchid clear to like not having while being light while being sweet-smelling.
In fact he knows too what she loved is his money. However, it is good like this, pay the money on one hand, it is joyous to hand in on the other hand, easily, understand, fresh, amazing, even let him get into the habit. Because in front of her, he can be vulgar heartily, can do at will, can release the greatest dementia. But he did not think: Dementia is all two-way. In he was just inclined to throw away “Â The tree peony ” When,but ones that keep on plotting for a long time make a recording on videotape she in bed - -The drama is also the most frequently used the most in this modern world, the most effective extortion means is unable to become true imagining at the same time. In the face of protagonist being one’s own pornofilm, he has filled out the cheques of many, hands are dry gradually. Interior anxiety and foreign aggression are always an intimate companion, other trouble are welled up together. It is known that she is a bottomless pit, dawdles again, he must know the whole army was completely wiped down.
He is extremely panic, revealed her at last. ” this thing is given to me, ” After sleep, will it be early morning next day, she say one night, “, do and then thing of us. ”
Some things, the woman can find out about seven inches of the woman’s most really.
“You know too, you press his money to do quickly oneself. Force him go down and then, he want, make a noise pieces of fish die network to be broken, he does not no doubt have a good end with you really, you will leave a crime of extorting too. The destruction of all people good and bad alike is uncalled-for? It must not be so unique to advise you to do things afterwards, the vicious reputation has been spread out, which man dare let you draw near later? ” Her heart is like the stagnant water.
“Do the fish die in the net and break? Does he dare? ” Eyes tip that peony hoist out high overflow scorn smile.
” he does not dare, I dare, ” She open mobile phone build, ” talk I just now have recording, listen to. ”
Tree peony stands up, stretch the clothing pleat behind: “Be regarded as you terribly, the account of him and me is settled at this point, has never expected he has such a wife, “She goes to the door, turns round again, ” vicious that actually you must express gratitude to me. If I am not so vicious, can your man’s defect be changed? In addition, I must prove to you that there is some: I am so vicious, because I have not planned to draw near the man all one’s life from the start. I draw near now, do not draw near the afterwards. Look like this kind of woman of yours, is used to drawing near the man all one’s life. ”
She is getting seized with terror. High-heeled shoes of tree peony go to the fields, knock at at floor like awl, far, disappeared at last. She still sits staring blankly. The last words of the tree peony are sounded in one’s ear thunderously.
After divorcing, the first thing which she does, to find out the painting brush again, wash the dust carefully, resume drawing a picture. Several year later, go after by she heart does not have, just draw blue. Apply ink to paper this time, different naturally. Her blue leaf is criss-cross, the density is in step, contrast finely with each other, it is vivid to catch the spirit. Her blue one is deep or light and suitable, moist and completely clear, the celestial appearance is graceful, each is different. Her blue stamen catches the spirit like the eyeball, unfold freedom, graceful and quiet and refined, the pen pen becomes poems. Her blue picture realm is better and better, enjoy a widespread reputation. She became a well-known painter at last.
So, each woman should have one’s own real stamen. This stamen should have three hearts. Value highly by oneself wholeheartedly, support oneself wholeheartedly, regard for oneself wholeheartedly. There is stamen of three such hearts, just have a nectar source, just has fragrance of flowers, just have spirit and soul - -Capable and laboring woman’s most honourable place.
